Hurrah, I’m officially over half way through this project! April has been a mad month, absolutely mad. I joined a gym with Fiedi, and the first few weeks of that were pretty painful. I fainted in my first gym session, which wasn’t at all awesome. I accidentally broke some hearts, too, and ended all my nothings. So that was a painful lesson to learn. I worked behind the bar (for what I’m pretty sure was the last time), which was brilliant (though, not the work part. The party part was awesome). I fell madly head over heels for Dub Fx, and have been thrashing his brilliance to the exclusion of all else. I’ve been slowly getting myself organised for possible adventures, which has been a lesson in patience and organisation. The last week wasn’t so brilliant, with two funerals to attend. I was closer to those that grieve than those that passed, but still, funerals aren’t particularly easy.

Apart from the last week or so, things feel more stable this month. Like I’ve finally found my footing, and I’m not grasping for handholds, and I don’t have to hold my breath anymore. It’s kinda nice :)

1st of April 2010 to 30th April 2010. 207 down. 158 to go.

Past Months: October, November, December, January, February, March.

March, another very crazy month. I got a bit down with the inspiration, and trying to figure out new shots to take. For a while there it was just ‘stand in front of a textured wall and take a photo, yeah!’ But that worked out okay for me. I also did ‘The Week of Random Headgear’ which was pretty fun, too. I dunno, I was super super busy this month, being busy most nights after work, and weekends filling up a week in advance. Madness! I did alot though, I’m glad I did. There were many, many adventures to be had. :)

Anyway, this is my March:

1st of March 2010 to 31st March 2010. 177 down. 188 to go.

Past Months: October, November, December, January, February.

Looking back, February was much better for me than January. My best friend came home for a week, and it was great to see her. I did alot of exciting new things, and definitely towards the end of the month felt like I was finally finding my feet again. Everything seemed alot less overwhelming, a lot less dramatic. It was nice to be able to breathe again.

I completely failed at uploading daily this month. One day would slip by, and the next, and it became a hassle. I’m still taking the photos everyday (which has been made easier by carrying my camera with me everywhere I go!) which has been good. I suspect if that became an issue the project would wither and die. Let’s hope it doens’t come to that!

This was my February:

1st of February to the 28th of February. 146 down. 219 to go.

Past Months: October, November, December, January.

Okay, I’ll be honest. Keeping up with this month was a serious struggle. I had to FORCE myself to take photos, and I was pretty slack at uploading them to flickr everyday. Often I’d do a bulk upload once a week. Sorry for the mass twitter spam updates. While I’m glad to say I’ve made it through January, I feel like I’m not really pushing myself to take better photos, to really experiment and get out there. Each of these photos has been a ‘quick, just take a photo of something, anything’. I will make an effort this February to change that, I think.

Also, looking back, January started off awesome, but descended into a twisty dark place with lots of horrible drama. Gah. Fingers crossed February is a better month!

This was my January:

1st of January to the 31st of January. 118 down. 247 to go.

Past Months: October, November, December.

Woo! Made it through another month. This project is getting easier and easier to put off, and it’s becoming a bit of a struggle to consistently take a shot. There are alot more ‘Just take a shot, any shot’ kind of photos than I’d like, but you take what you can get. It was incredibly tricky while I was away over the New Year to remember to take one, especially as I didn’t have the daily upload process to get me through! Heres hoping January will be an easier month.

My December:

Past Months: October, November.

Hurrah! I’ve made it through another month! This month was a little harder than last. I kept forgetting to pick up the camera on my way out the door (its a big SLR, not the most pleasant thing to lug around) which meant I’d get home at around 11pm and go gah! Have to take a photo! It meant lots of photos in my bathroom, or ‘look at the camera and JUST TAKE IT’. Taking a photo everyday is not as easy as I thought it would be. It requires effort, and commitment. Still, it helps pass the time and I haven’t given up on it yet! :)

So, this was my November:

1st of November to the 30th of November. 56 down. 309 to go.

Past Months: October.

I was going to post yesterday, but I didn’t. Things are still up and down with me, I’m not sure what I’m doing, or what I want and I’m pretty sure I should know these things. I’m struggling with the idea that it’s okay to not know what I’m doing, or what I want. And I’m still rocking the distractions like it’s no ones business.

Like, the 365 project I started last month. I made it all the way through October. It’s been pretty easy, but I was surprised at how some days I just could. not. be. fucked. I pushed through, and I’m still taking a daily photo, but I was surprised at how some days I was happy with a two second ‘just take the damn photo of something, ANYTHING’ shot, and other days I’d take 200 shots of my tongue, looking for the PERFECT photo to post. Yeah, things are bit odd for me right now.

Anyway, because I’m stoked I’ve got this far. This is my October:

October 6th to the 31st. 26 days down. 339 to go. :)

This is what I looked like early this morning, as I was standing outside waiting for my dog to do his thing.

It’s the third shot of my 365 project, which is something I’ve wanted to do for ages but always found reasons to put off. Things like “I’ve only got a point and click” or “I’m too busy” or “A photo everyday? I’ll never do it”

But then Sibling’s boyfriend let me borrow his old SLR (a pretty sweet Canon 350D) and with things being all messed up lately I’ve decided to take on a new attitude.

The kind where I stop making excuses and actually commit myself to something. The kind where I act on fun impulses and do the spontaneous. The kind where for now? I do what I want to do.

So far this has been quite an interesting way to think, and has produced some pretty awesome results. I drove 20 minutes in the wrong direction to see a cute boy who brought me a hot chocolate and was perfectly charming. I called The Boy on a whim and for ten minutes things felt almost normal. A danced around in pretty heels with a pink cocktail in hand with people I hadn’t met before, and probably won’t meet again, and last night I got taken out to a gorgeous restaurant in the Chancery with two friends who made me happy.

So, no more excuses. I decided to stop just thinking about it, and do it. And I like the 365 project. There are lots of different versions of it out there, but I joined the 365days flickr group.

The idea is that you take one self-portrait a day, with the intention of improving your photo taking skills. You work with the same subject everyday (yourself, so you can’t moan about not having a subject, and it also provides some consistency) and actually? Taking on photo a day isn’t as difficult as I thought it would be.

I do worry about the days where there isn’t a machine with an Internet connection handy, but let’s be honest. Those days a few and far between (me and the Internet are tight, see).

So yes. I’m doing a 365 day project. Fingers crossed I can get to day 365. :)

Are any of you rocking a 365 project?